Outside My Window

So this is a blog, huh? Well, I have been prompted by my boyfriend to write, so, write I shall. It does make sense though, that writing may be a way for me to feel better and let my creative side out in an additional format. I have been feeling overwhelmed lately. By what? Well, just life in general. This past weeks vacation definitely helped me, though, it would have been better if my significant other (SO) could have relaxed more.

The beach, ocean, sea grass, marshes, sunsets and laid back lifestyle of South Carolina did soothe my worried soul. I have just been so emotional lately (could be the hormones) and I worry constantly. About money, life, the baby, where will we live, how will I pay for Graduate School....do I want to go to Graduate School still...do I want to do this, should I do that---just constant worry.

Finally I was able to paint. I have not painted in so long. But, I knew my creative side would come out once I smelled that sweet, salty marsh air. It may have taken four months but I finally put paint onto that canvas I bought! I did not get much reading done (usually I read several books a trip) but I at least started a couple great new novels. Mostly, I just did not worry and it was grand.

Now I am back here in my lazy, hazy, humid and hot river town...without a beach or marsh grass and am feeling once again, a little out of place, but not quite as worried. I need things to look forward to. Anyone else like that? I need activities to put on my calendar and cross off...it makes my days go by quicker or rather, I just feel more connected to life. I have a few things...haha...to look forward to ...like our first son Kaden coming in September! But September seems so far away right now ....and so hot of a journey to get to! I am moving into my SO's apartment at the end of the month, so of course, packing is in my very near future. I hate moving. It's just an awful process. Especially when you have accumulated as much stuff as I have. How I ever fit all of my stuff in my tiny one bedroom apartment a year ago is beyond me! Bonus to moving: Getting to work with our friend, an interior design major, in designing the perfect, temporary, but liveable apartment. Trust me. With our budget, we need major help!

Some people would say I am crazy for wanting to put so much effort into somewhere where I wont live for very long. I tell them all the same thing. I have to enjoy the space I am living, in order to be comfortable. And right now, the white walls, dropped ceilings, no closets and unfinished kitchen would give me hives just being there for a day and night. So, with my budget and antique finding skills and Jory's interior design flair we will hopefully have some amazing before and after pictures for you soon!

Tonite we are having dinner with our newly married friends and they are cooking! Which is a great relief because now that I am in to my third trimester I find it difficult to do much of anything once I am home at 5:00. Speaking of, I better rap it up, 5:00 is quickly approaching.

Observations from my window today:
The once fabulous downtown eatery across the street has officially closed it's doors. A sad story indeed. It was the first restaurant I ate at when visiting this small river town six years ago. It will be missed.

Good night all!

“Every moment of your life is infinitely creative and the universe is endlessly bountiful. Just put forth a clear enough request, and everything your heart desires must come to you.”